Saturday, August 27, 2016

How I almost stopped writing




Of late, I don't feel the urge to pick up my  pen like before. It makes me think, have I really lost it? The one thing that I love more than anything else in this world, the one thing that kept me going all these years? I don't know. I like to think not. I prefer to believe that writing has not abandoned me completely. How can something that's a part of you be taken away?

I took to writing when I was going through one of the lowest phases of my life. Writing healed me, it was my therapy and I made some life long friends along the way. Some of whom are still there with me and some had to leave or I had to let them go. But the one thing that gave me hope through all of the curveballs that life threw my way was writing. I lost myself in the world of words. 

Though there have been days I have gone without writing a word, when I always came back, it felt right like home. Even now, there's a little nudge inside me to keep writing, to keep creating. I haven't been a prompt blogger, I haven't been replying to comments and I'm extremely sorry for all that. But thanks so much for having faith in me. 

It's been a tough time for me and as things get better, I hope to write more. To do justice to all the stories in my head. It would be easier to give up, shut down this blog, an idea that I have been toying with. But that would simply make me a coward, to shut down my voice for fear of being judged. I want to write, to speak what's on my mind, just like I used to. And even if I don't succeed, I'm definitely not going to stop trying. I owe it to myself, to the words that I have been gifted with, to the people who had faith in me even when I didn't. It took me a while to realize it, life may change but somethings are forever...

24 comments:

  1. Aha! Nice to see you back in action. :)

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  2. Oh c'mon,this is just one of those phases that all of us writers go through. Don't let it get to you. The comfort of our own blog space does give us the flexibility to decide our pace and the freedom of choosing when and what to write about. Glad that you decided to continue blogging.

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    1. Thanks so much, Vinodini. Somethings are too precious to give up completely.

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  3. Oh c'mon,this is just one of those phases that all of us writers go through. Don't let it get to you. The comfort of our own blog space does give us the flexibility to decide our pace and the freedom of choosing when and what to write about. Glad that you decided to continue blogging.

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  4. I am rocking the same boat. Only that you reached the shore and wrote something, while I am still well, contemplating.

    Hope you write more.
    And probably I'll write about not being able to write. It may be a one line post, but still it would be a start.

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    1. Even a line counts. Do write. It's hard but we got to do what we have to.

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  5. Don't stop writing. Ever. Writing heals like nothing else can. Write a little everyday, you don't even need to publish it. Do it if and when you're ready. It will be fine.

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    1. Thanks a lot, Shailaja. I'm trying to find the muse again. Albeit slowly.

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  6. Why would you shut it down? Your blog is like your dear friend. You can always come back and open up your heart to it.

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  7. Now Now you don't have to shut down your blog just because there's no muse. As you said you started writing during the tough phases of life... so that just means that you must be at a happier place :) I love reading your posts so don't derive me of that pleasure :)

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    1. Awww! Thank you, Raj <3 I always love to hear from you :)

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  8. Please do not consider shutting the blog down or stop writing. I completely get you. I went through the phases of non-writing and wondered if all the writing I did was just a lucky fluke. Trust me, the interest does come back, especially when it has been such a vital part of your life. Your writing has always been beautiful and I want to read more. So, please take time if that's what you need but come back!

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    1. I'm so overwhelmed by the love that you're showering me with. Thanks a ton, Uma. You know exactly what I'm going through.

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  9. One should never stop writing..I believe it has this strange therapeutic nature to it. It can calm an agitated mind, heal a wounded heart and give company to a lonely heart. So get ovet your this phase, and write--- from your heart :)

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  10. I know the feeling, I do. Stop if you have to. Assess. Do what you want to. Do it for you :)

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  11. Somethings are for ever, you said it Aathira. Your writing for you is for ever. It was a passing phase, your frustration and the wish to stop writing. You should never stop writing. Writing and Aathira are intertwined and inseparable. O K ? You must always write , whatever you can, whatever you feel like. Because you write for your satisfaction. Not for others's pleasure.
    Keep writing and you will be Happy. All the best. God bless you.
    K

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    1. Thanks so much for the encouragement as always. I'm trying to get back on track.

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  12. Write my dear, just write. Don't do it for others who expect to read you, don't do it for those who make you want to write. Do it for you. And stay true.

    Lots of love!

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    1. Truer words haven't been spoken. Thanks Darling <3

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