Remember Gouri? G was for Gouri for my A to Z challenge last month and I had promised to turn it into a novella. Though I started having second thoughts as the story progressed, something in me told me to keep going. I
was still am haunted by fears. Fear of disappointments, lack of originality, coming off as superficial.
These thoughts kept plaguing me each time I sat down to write. However, due to the constant encouragement from a bunch of people, I decided to keep going. Besides, I had made a promise to all of you too. It is only fair that I complete the story, irrespective of the fact whether everyone will like it or not. My job is simply to tell Gouri's story and to keep at bay the fear of judgement.
So yes, I'm happy to say that Gouri is a progressing at a rocky pace for now and that I hope shall see the light of the day soon. There are so many layers to her that I'm discovering and enjoying. Each part is a surprise, this is a journey that makes me ecstatic whenever I achieve the target word count. Preethi, thanks so much for believing in my story. I hope it is worth it!
Before signing off, here are a few snippets from the work-in-progress that Gouri currently is:
"My moist eyes remind me of things that were; and of things, that perhaps, can never be. Without reason, without logic, my heart weeps for something that I may never know, never had."
"Lover from another century. Soul mate of my current life. Wound together by karma. Destined together in love."
"A tear drop made its way on my cheek as I squeezed my eyes shut. This hurt, this pain, will it ever go away?"
Word after word after word. Some wrenched out from my soul, some from my pen. I have a new found respect for all writers now. As Hemingway said - there is nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and bleed. In my case, the only difference being that it's my laptop.
Do you like the snippets? Let me know through your comments below :)