D - Delilah

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I see your eyes on me when I step into a room 

Criticizing, gazing shamelessly at my curves

I was the one who hid behind shapeless clothes

To hide that extra roll of fat or two 

I'm the one that was made of fun of in school 

The pathetic fat girl who had no friends 

Jeers that I took on silently for I was ashamed

I was disgusted at the body that was bestowed on me

Not fair, I came home and cried silently 

You will never know the long hours I spent

Sticking a finger up my throat to get rid of it all

The guilt I felt each time I gave into temptation

That double burger and crisps that I binged on

The more I ate, the more stressed I got 

Until it started all over again 

I was just another sad statistic

I was just another girl who was measured 

In terms of her Body Mass Index alone 

The fact that I wrote poetry or was fascinated with literature 

None of it mattered, neither did it count 

Until one day I realized that pleasing others

Was not my priority, I was more than that 

I was more than just a figure on a tipping scale

I was a woman, big and proud 

I no longer hide behind unflattering clothes

I revel in my body and all that it has to offer 

My wide hips, my love handles, I love it all 

I still turn heads when I walk into a room 

But it's my confidence that gets talked of 

And my ability to weave words out of the blue 

I smile because they don't even see half of me 

And neither do I plan to show too

I'm a plus sized woman and proud of it 

I see women with svelte curves and the perfect hair

But would I swap places with them? With their tiny hearts?

I would rather be the woman I am with a bigger heart still...

Linking this post to the A to Z Challenge.